Tommorrow is the big day!

Well I took my class on Monday and they let me know what to prepare for for surgery. Things just are moving so fast. I try not to get too self absorbed about the risk of surgery. You have to sign off several times on the risks, so it makes it more difficult not to think about it.

I had to drink the Kool-aide today. (just kidding, it's actually a ten ounce bottle of mouth watering Magnesium Sulfate) I had to drink it a 3:00 pm and then no more food for the day or night, no liquids after midnight. Not really a problem. I had a Lean Cuisine Pizza for
Lunch and that was it. They also have you wash your belly with dial soap, once the day beforre and once the morning before you leave for surgery. I found that to be a little weird.

I worked until about 9:15 and then called it a day. I keep thinking I'm forgetting something
but I guess I'll figure that out in the morning. The surgery is at 7:30 am. "Rise and Shine"

I'm hoping there is Internet at the hospital so I can write down the experience as it happens.
I have been taking meds for Adult Deficit Disorder for the last few months. I don't know if that's why I'm not
that anxious, or if I just don't have any of the physical feelings of anxiety. I usually would be more panicky. I'm pretty relaxed about this. There are still those thoughts in the back of my head that remind me of the seriousness of this whole procedure.

I have been so concerned about the surgery part of this that I haven't contemplated what it
will feel like to actually get control over my eating and have a successful outcome. How will I look? How will I feel physically after a few months. I'm pretty sure this surgery will take care
of the hunger. I'm also sure I will follow through with whatever is needed to help this happen.
I'm not too sure what I'll look like, I haven't spent too much time on that.

Well, we'll see. I'd better get to bed and get ready for tomorrow.